Forgive and Forget I think not

I hope I made you proud,
I'm not the kid I was,
You beat that out of me,
I will never forgive you,
I grow up to fast,
Took care of my brother,
I always thought you were a good man,
Befor you turned on me,
I hope one day someone shows you how it fells,
To feel unloved by someone you trusted,
I will never be perfect in your eyes,
I hope you have forgiven yourself,
I never will,
Neither will David,
We deserved better than to be treated like that,
Now I know why I've always thought it a good idea to end it,
End my life,
It was you,
You never knew,
Or so you say,
You knew all along that you were wrong,
You took my childhood with your fists,
So many nights I cryed myself to sleep,
Afried you will get drunk enough to kill me,
Or mom,
Or my brother,
A child should never be afraid for their life,
I will make it one day,
No matter what you think of what I do,
I hope you are proud,
You made me a stronger person,
But at what expince,
My youth,
Mayber I should thank you,
For the years of abuse to my family,
My mind,
I would have never known true fear,
The day you lifted me off the ground,
I hope your happy,
You say "Forgive and forget",
I say no,
I think not,
Confess to you god,
No child abusing ass like you should be forgiven,
I hate you,
I always will,
I hope I made you proud.